EMBRACING UGLINESS

So, a candid picture of me was taken recently and when I saw it, the words that ran through my head were, “Urgh.  I am so ugly.  Delete that picture immediately.”  So, apart from the idea that this is exactly what I am working against with Intuitive Eating, a new thought occurred to me.  What […]

OF CANDY CORNS AND ELIZABETH SMART

THE HISTORY The midafternoon sun is devilishly misleading, for its bright rays beckon warmth when it is really the crisp autumn air that regulates the chill in the air and wafts with cinnamon and apple.  The delicious smells spin in tendrils of steam from the crack of an opened kitchen window.  But the window is […]

THE TASTE OF WEAKNESS

THE TRIGGER  So, the flu gets everyone down, and I have had it for nine days now—fever, chills, body aches, extreme sore throat, congestion, the works.  But, in addition to the normal difficulties that illness brings (and these were enormous considering the fact that my husband and 11-month-old daughter also had the flu, which left […]

WHEN SOMEONE CALLED ME THE UGLY DUCKLING

MY REACTION For most of my life, whenever I body bash, there are others around me who tell me that I am beautiful.  I cannot recall times when anyone has ever agreed with my criticisms of body disgust and ugliness.  However, recently, someone close to me called me the ugly duckling.  At first, I felt […]

LETTER TO THE WEIGHT LOSS INDUSTRY: I SAY ENOUGH!

Dear Weight Loss Industry (diets, exercise programs, supplements, plastic surgery, hollywood, you-know-who-you-are, etc.): When I follow your lead, I feel like a monkey on a leash, grasping at the newest and best banana that gets thrown in my direction.  Nothing is satisfying, everything is depriving.  When I listen to your sweet whispers, I think not […]

BIGGEST FEAR–SAYING GOODBYE TO THE FANTASY

THE BRICK WALL  I have always thought of myself as a courageous person, one not really driven by fear.  However, my therapist was able to see past that façade, even when I didn’t even know that it was a façade.  He challenged me to ask “What fear is driving this?” whenever I have a difficult […]

A FORK IN THE ROAD

THE THOUGHT Today, I want to share about a thought that has been growing in my mind since my third therapy session.  During that session, my therapist talked about the idea that my constant shame-based thoughts about body and self-worth have blinded me to the reality that there is another choice.  There is the path […]